Thwarted

I just phoned that clinic in Eugene that is supposed to do embryo donation, only they dont. Not really "maybe one or two a year". They dont actually have any sort of program. I then phoned Oregon Health Sciences university fertility clinic. This is the other major clinic in town, other than mine. They dont do it either. Well they have, but only a handful of times in the many years they have been operatiing. So I got back on the phone and left messages at major clinics in Seattle and LA. I dont want to have to travel in the event that we do this, but it looks like there is no choice. I hate that this has to be so bloody hard, at every turn. I would love to wake up to a baby, in a basket, on my doorstep. Hell if Im going to travel I might as well get a good vacation out of it. Maybe South Africa? Maybe somewhere in Eastern Europe. hmmm.

Homestudy has started, but not by any means finished. Brian has a 3 hour interview with our social worker on the 28th. 4 hours for me on the 29th, she said it will take longer because my family is "much more complicated". Which brings to mind this scene from the film Blade Runner

I actually have almost 100% good feelings about my mother, and well you know,, Im not a Replicant. So this should go just fine.

a week or so after that we will have our final interview and saftey inspection.

Work is winding down. I have to work tomorrow on what should be my day off, because we are putting on a carnival for the residents. Should be a real cluster f*ck! oh well, more money for me. I desire a petunia picklebottom diaper bag, but they cost more than my wedding ring did! Still havnt purchased anything for the kids rooms, but been shopping.

EDIT MAYBE NOT SO THWARTED,JUST GOT A CALL FROM THE CLINIC IN SEATTLE, THEY DO EMBRYO DONATION! THEY HAVE A PROGRAM, BUT THEY WONT TAKE JUST ANYONE. SHE ASKED ME A BUNCH OF QUESTIONS AND SAID WE CAN DO IT BECAUSE OF OUR SAD HISTORY OF INFERTILITY AND EARLY LOSS. SHE SAID NOT MANY PEOPLE WHO INQUIRE ACTUALLY QUALIFY. IM GOING TO MAKE AN INITAL APPOINTMENT JUST TO SEE WHAT ITS ALL ABOUT AND HOW MUCH IT COSTS THEN IN A YEARS TIME IF WE ARE NO CLOSER TO AN ADOPTION THROUGH THE STATE WE WILL GO AHEAD AND TRY IT I LOVE TO HAVE A PLAN!!!!BONUS FOR A TRIP ON THE TRAIN AND AN OVERNIGHT STAY IN SEATTLE.