mid cycle

My 8.5 months of pregnancy and the last year seem to have gone by in a flash. Here we are again. Sex when you don't really want it. Hormonal fluctuations. Planning and peeing on things.  I think I ovulated yesterday, maybe it's today. Let the wait commence! No hot flashes or other clomephine side effects this cycle with the exception of a foul mood. My plan is to get Brian on board for an IUI w/ injects cycle this late spring, if need be. It's dreadfully expensive. I would switch RE's. Not that thrilled with the care that I got at Oregon reproductive medicine. Will check out Oregon health science university. the only other real choice for fertility clinics.  At first I had let Brian convince me that we would simply stop after a year of timed intercourse with clomid. Then I got to thinking about the amount of emotional stamina a full year of TTC would take.  

cd 3

Clomid.  I feel like I should have some idea of my expectations and how long we are willing to try. I have no idea. It all feels new again. The stakes are not as high.  I'm not going to lie and say that I already have one child, and it is fine if we don't have another. It wouldn't be fine, but at this point I know that the sibling has a decent chance of being an adopted one. I am attending a conference for people involved in child welfare tomorrow. Our foster/ adopt certifier will be there too and we plan to have lunch and discuss straight up adoption vs. foster to adopt. It will happen one way or the other. I don't expect either way will be easy.

We celebrated Titus' first birthday on the 4th. A big party at a rented venue with over 40 guests. It was fun. We wanted that big day for us as much as him. We certainly had something to celebrate.  I can't help but feel that all children who arrive after a long struggle are just a smidge more special.